Minor identity crisis
Saturday, September 29, 2007
I realized the other day that I have never been hired by a man. Well, there was that one guy who hired me cus he wanted to sleep with me, but that job even ultimately came from an interview with the second in command at the hotel... a woman. Am I that gay? Do I turn straight men off? Do they just sense that we won't get along? I thought I had massive cross appeal! I do have straight man friends! WTF Mate?
posted by ZEUS @ 10:16 AM, No comment,
Job
Saturday, September 22, 2007
So, its kinda official, I've accepted a job with the State. I am excited! This means I am going to be getting benefits, making money, and it turns out this is work that I am really loving! I started last Wednesday and things are going really well. I am getting real work, and i am working with some great people (both support and attorneys). I can't tell you how excited I am. I can't wait until I can actually call myself an attorney and really have this job. . .
You see, that's the catch. I am not officially an attorney yet. I get to do legal analysis; I went to school to learn how to do that. What I don't get to do is sign my name on anything I do if it goes to court. I don't get to have my opinion be the final opinion on anything. . . I don't get to be an attorney until I am licensed by the state. Readers know that I took the bar exam in July. I have not posted that results are out, because results are not out. The State needs an attorney in this job. I am only working at this job to take the slant out of my learning curve after I get licensed.
That's a bit of a problem with this job. I get fired if the bar results come out and I didn't pass. I accepted the job knowing that. I REALLY needed the money. I can't imagine not doing this job. I worked my ass off this summer studying for the bar. I watched my life fall down around my ears and still I studied every day. My best friend moved away, and I still spent time every day studying instead of making the most of the time we had left together. I almost lost my damn identity to the stress of this summer. I don't want to regret what I missed. I want this to pay off. I NEED this to pay off.
Tonight I am in Denver. Tonight I am going to go out and have a good time with a friend I am lucky to see once a year, if that often. Tonight I am going to try to forget about this, if only for tonight. Thanks for letting me vent. It won't be long now, I hope, until these questions are resolved.
posted by ZEUS @ 5:02 PM, No comment,
Sad Sad Sad
Sunday, September 09, 2007
I really was all prepared to post about how badly I hated Britney Spears' performance last night on the Video Music Awards, but I really can't say anything that isn't already being said. I'll just rant a little to get it out of my system. Trust me the post I wrote last night was epic.
If you missed the VMAs, and you were ever even a little bit of a Britney fan, you should see it. Just do yourself a favor after watching the train wreck, search You Tube for other Britney VMA performances and remind yourself of what she is capable of. That is truly what made last night sad. If she wasn't ever good, who the F cares? Too bad she's supposed to be a professional.
posted by ZEUS @ 9:37 PM, No comment,
